Good Morning mam, Good Morning sir. My name is Leticia, and I am a maid.

I have a thing for folk music and art

I bit my tongue in the awkward conversation.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
I met you once and I'd fallen for your notions.
I don't know why.
I don't know why.
Do you believe that there's treasures in the ocean
Did I say I'm just a boy?

One kiss from you and I'm drunk up on your potion.
That big old smile is all you wore.
Girl you make me want to feel,
Things I've never felt before.
Girl you make me want to feel,
Did I say I'm just a boy,
Did I say I'm just a boy,
You can hold me to that.

No lonely hands grab my suitcase full of nothing
I don't know why
I don't know why
You took me in gave me something to believe in
That big old smile is all you wore
Girl you make me want to feel
Things I never felt before
Girl you make me want to feel
Did I say I'm just a boy
Did I say I'm just a boy
You can hold me to that

Very angry post.

I wanted to post this entry after my attachment has ended, but I guess I'll put this up now. And maybe add to it when 22nd May finally comes.

Ever since my attachment started, the question of "Will I ever want to work in this line in the future?" keeps popping into my head. Truth is, I don't know. I've been having a constant mind battle about it. I don't know, its hard to really decide!

Because honestly if you'd ask me if I enjoyed the time of my attachment. I'd tell you I hated it. To be less cynical, there were those really fun times mainly because the production team is filled one too many wacky cast and crew members who do the funniest things to entertain each other. Of course Jo-Ann was always beside me when things were getting too bad. But more than the fun times were the bad times. The times where I forget to bring the correct wardrobe for continuity to prev episodes/scenes, times where props were misplaced/left at the office, times where I forget to order lunch/dinner etc, times where I screw up things with the location etc. And I'm usually not this forgetful, its just that I'm placed with many responsibilities and I just can't will my mind to remember every single detail.

Also working 7 days a week, 12 hours a day. It tires me out, and I'll naturally forget things and make mistakes. What I don't like about making mistakes is that to me, it shows how irresponsible and careless I am. And I HATE to make bad impressions. Also, when I make these mistakes I get reprimanded pretty badly in any kind of vulgarity. Which is, really hard to take.

Especially since, hello. I'm a MOTION GRAPHICS STUDENT. Mostly, I sit infront of a computer all day and do graphics and think of concepts. I have never ever been on set before, I don't know the demands of what is required on set. I don't know what to do and no one taught me anything much about what I'm supposed to do on set. I picked up most things by myself.What gives you the right to call me "fucking colourblind?" and you're only 2 years older than me (oops). What gives you the right to vent your frustration on me, just because I'm an intern and a production assistant doesn't mean I don't have any dignity nor any feelings.

I'm allowed to feel tired like any person is, I'm allowed to make mistakes and learn from them. Considering that I've only been in here for almost 2 months I would say that I am rapidly picking up things, because I've never been on set before and never knew how to run a production before. Cut me some slack will you?

Also, I get phonecalls from my in-charge like almost 24/7. No matter what time, let alone what day it is. So much so that every time my phone rings, a sense of panic starts bubbling inside of me. Along with a mixture of fear and anxiety. I hate it.

I haven't worked in any other places as much, I'm just wondering if its like this everywhere?

I feel like Anne Hathaway from The Devil Wears Prada. Except that for her, she gets to claim her cab fares and almost everything else, when I can't. Everything comes out from my own pay of $450 a month which is always given to me late.

So I'm just wondering if all other production houses will be the same? Of course not the working hours part, that one's understood. I'm just asking if all other production houses also have extremely nasty people who scream vulgarities at you when you didn't even do anything wrong, but they themselves gave you unclear instructions. I'm asking if whether other production houses also don't reimburse you for your transport fees, like when you take a cab at midnight because no other transport is available.

Don't know. Because if the company is filled with extremely nice people who treat me with respect, I wouldn't mind working for them 7 days a week, 12 hours a day nonstop.

What I hate most about being in where I am now, is the lack of respect I've been given. I'm not some tiny little shit for you to trample on.

Whatever it is, 22nd May is coming. It'll be done soon.

Also I haven't mentioned what company it is that I've been working in. So I can't be sued. No one mention it too, k?

Hahahahahahahhahahahahahaa.

Just an update

Haha. Yeah, been MIA-ing for a while. I guess I've had a pretty rough week at work, I mean come on. 5 consecutive days of filming. And 12 hours each day.. Certainly tired me out. And it made me lose focus and forget things. And forgetting things meant scoldings and last minute changes to scenes. Felt really horrible, because I'm the sort of person who takes every mistake to heart, and I can't stop thinking about it. I think about letting my in-charge down, letting myself down because I wanted to be capable enough, strong enough, good enough to carry things out.

Just felt all beaten down, inside and out. But then again, why should I care about the approval of man? God's approval of me is more than sufficient. He sees me in all my failings and still loves me. Thank God I got through the week without falling sick. Thank God.

I'm not going to say anything negative. Instead maybe I should talk about the positive. I really love our director, Remi. Nicest guy ever. And Darius, our key grip. The ONLY crew member who doesn't bitch about anyone behind their backs. (God only knows what everyone has been saying about me. Ha.)

Thank God for such nice people. I shan't say anything more.

There's shoot tomorrow. 9.30am-10pm. SIGH. PRESSING ONNNN!!!!! (:

No life, drink wine.

(Logan's nick says: If the time is right, the wine is right)

me: So if the wine is right, then the time will be right la?
me: HAHAHAHAHAHHA

logan: HAHAHAHAHAH
logan: isnt that what i said?!

me: I reversed it!
me: it makes a bit of difference!

logan: if the wine not right ah, then the time will be wrong.
logan: HAHAHAHAHAH

me: wahh so deep

logan: so the wine cannot buy from NTUC all.

me: HAHAHAHAHA.

logan: yeah.. thats the message. dont buy wine from NTUC
logan: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
logan: wahhhh natee i swear i miss you laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

me: awwwwwwwwwwwwww. I MISS YOU TOO LAAAAAAAAAAA.

logan: damnit man. i know i've been an ass these few days like never talk to ya'll all.
logan: buttttttt,
logan: deep down,

me: DEEP DOWN IN YOUR BUTT?
me: HAHAHHAHA

logan: oh damn. buttt and deep down dont go well together
logan: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
logan: I JUST SAID THE SAME THING
logan:CYBER HIGH FIVE
logan: *PIAK*

me: HAHAHAH
me: Wah we really no life.
me: how ah.

logan: really, really no life
logan: wah i feel like drinking wine

Real sorry if you're reading this, Logan.

(screenshot from nad's blog because I'm too lazy to type it out)
Sorry Logan, you know you're still my dearest friend. LOL.

And this will be a good time to post this picture:


HAHA all you 3d lame people know why I look so unhappy.
Oh gosh, this is so fun. I miss school sooooo much.

I still find this very funny.

ni hao wo shi luluer,ah!yi wo de ji..er..for my esperier,i few,iet is uh..very best,ief we have uh,bors,,on uh the worlds in the show,uh,subertitles,er..lika in the kalaokey,uh,they ryrics,we also have~uh the bounce bounce bors,uh xiao qiu qiu,because of the bounce bounce bors,its very Q~

Sunday to Tuesday events

On Sunday:



Look at that. Yummy.

Hahahahaha. Sick la, Natasha. Sick.

This is my wound, after getting scalded by a motorcycle exhaust pipe on Sunday. It wasn't really anything, I just simply squeezed in between 2 motorcycles, because they were parked in such a way that was blocking my path home. So I squeezed past, felt something really hot against my calf, screamed "OW!" Then turned back to look at my leg and discovered my skin had been torn off. Hahaha, I was with Isa then. And she was like "Did something scrape your leg? Or did you feel something hot?" I was like, "I dunno leh." And then I happily walked home, ignored the wound until it became bloody and the skin around it was burnt. Yum. Hahahahaha.

Monday:

I was running an errand for work when I witnessed a motorcycle accident near Tekka Market. Scary shit. I was just walking straight down, heading towards Little India Mrt station, when suddenly I heard a really loud "VRRROOOOM." Turned to my left and literally saw this guy hurtling in the air with his motorcycle then hitting the ground. The poor guy was rolling on the road, got up and crawled his way to the curb. I almost cried, it was so scary. I prayed all the way for the guy as I was walking back to the Mrt station.

Tuesday:

Filmed at science centre. They needed a last minute extra, so they just pushed me and the other intern to act as 2 gossipy girls. I fail at acting la, I swear. Hahahaha. Cameras are scary.

3 eventful days. 3 meaningful lessons. Number 1. don't ever ride a motorcycle, don't get a boyfriend who rides a motorcycle. 2. Motorcycle exhaust pipes are really hot, so watch out. 3. Acting is actually pretty scary.

What did you learn the past 3 days?