I can't cry.

I don't know why, I can't. I'm just frozen. I feel so much sadness, but I teach myself to block these feelings out. It seems like I don't know how to unblock them anymore. I've lost the sensitivity to feelings. I feel like I've blocked too many things to the point where, I just lost the ability to cry over things I feel sad over anymore.

I want to feel again. I want to really cry, just to get rid of this burden. I want to feel sad then feel better. I don't want to smile and block anymore. Don't want to wear that mask anymore.

I can be a very good actress if I want to be. I even fool myself sometimes.