G-g-g-golly

Somehow I'm just kinda tired for shouldering responsibilites. Hahaha, not that I have many? But, I'm just tired. I've heard alot, gave alot. Somehow or other.. Not to complain or whine but I believe in some ways I give more than I take in many areas of my life. It's not something I can help either, I just hate to take. But there's only so much more, that my capacity allows me to give. Sigh. Oh well. Pressing on, pressing on! (: God strengthens me.

Very much affected by people around me too, their negative energy. So many horrible things happening at one time, not just to me but to other people, its the kinda thing that really makes you realise how ugly the world is. Opens up your eyes.

(Random thought) Interesting fact that JonPhan told me. Okay forgive all the loopholes in the story, I forgot some parts. But here's like, a very brief version of it. Apparently in some church, there were nuns suffering from Alzheimer's disease. Some died, others lived. According to wikipedia, Alzheimer's disease is the most common cause of dementia, afflicting 24 million people worldwide. Alzheimer's is a degenerative and terminal disease for which there is currently no known cure. Alzheimer's disease causes changes or deterioration in certain areas of the brain that control thinking, communication, and behavior. (Haiya shit I just realized I forgot alot of facts in the story, LOL) So basically, nuns as we know lead their lives really mundanely. Like they just go about doing their chores and thats it, end of the day. And, thats partly how Alzheimer is caused, because there's not much brain activity going on. So these scientists and psychologists went to investigate, like why is it that only some of these nuns die, and some didn't, and they did some pretty in depth research.

So apparently what they found was, those nuns that didn't die, kept journals when they were younger. And in the journals, they questioned life and its meaning... That kind of thing. Apparently (I keep saying apparently, wth), questioning about life and writing about it, thinking about it stimulates some kind of activity in the brain that prevents the Alzheimer's disease.

Pretty cool huh? I'm safe against Alzheimer's disease because I've been questioning life since I was a kid. HAHA. Yeah so I guess, we should all open our eyes once in while. Not to be too enclosed in our personal space, and be aware of things that are happening... And question things we don't understand. We might not get a real answer, but we shouldn't stop trying to delve and reach deeper (:

WHEEEEEEE.

I finally plucked out these sticky things that are under my laptop. They were supposed to be the stickers for my laptop stand, but I hardly use my laptop stand. So they were just annoyingly in the way, and I finally removed them. Took alot of work okay. My french manicure chipped when I removed it. Wasted. Now I have to remove my french manicure.

Haiyo, shiats. You just came online, I really don't want to be reminded of you again. Stop signing in and out.

Keren and I wanna try being vegetarians for a week starting tomorrow. Hopefully I will remember. And anyway, I'm not really in a meaty mood the past few days. I just hope I remember I'm a vegetarian for a week. Hahahaha.

My left hand is itchy, hahaha. I'm tired and its too silent in the room. But I'm pretty sick of music suddenly. Just suddenly. I dread going to school tomorrow, I really do. Everything is so slow and spiritless and draining. Even the people. Even you. Even me.

I'm very disappointed in you. I thought you'd do more. I thought that you'd say something more. But it was all in my head, all in my whimsically effed up head. You know you can show me anger, or whatever. Just show me you care. I think you know, and I know you can't do much about it. But well. Just... Well.

Imma stoppa nowa.

Well I guess I have should have been around to sing you to sleep
You look so beautiful...
It hurts me slightly

Oh you are my scar
And that's not really far
Oh you know I've tried so hard for you, for you